Rainy days make me want to snuggle in bed and hide under my warm blankets.
i wish i could watch movies all day, but i have work to do, as usual.

are you a postmodernist?

i ended up getting an 87% on my midterm. really happy with where i am with it. but now i'm beyond behind with my art aesthetics class. i have six papers i haven't turned in.

ceramics is really pushing me to the limit especailly since i'm going home for spring break for a week. i don't regret buying my ticket. although i should have known that a full week back wouldn't be good for me, especailly with no studio up there.

i actually got a tall soy hazelnut house coffee and a warm slice of cinnamon coffee cake at starbucks. you know, i consume way too much coffee for my own good. i know that sounds so cliche, but it's true. and the ironic part is that it doesn't even wake me up. i just drink it because it tastes good any time of the day, especially in the early mornings and late nights. i am making somewhat good progress for my art history midterm. i am thinking about skipping my aesthetics class from 4-7. i could use that extra time to actually brainstorm for my jackson pollock essay. right now, i'm still working on notecards and understanding the images.

abstract expressionism
modernism
action painting
color-field
art informel
tachisme
gutai
fluxus
british pop art
poular culture, pop art, mass media, consumption, american culture
european modernism architecture
beat generation

oftentimes, i grow afraid of forgetting what i read. oftentimes, that is what happens. but sometimes, when i blog in increments and list what i remember, i end up listing most of what i read.

blogging helps.

side note:

flaws-bastille
always going to be a favorite song.

i actually just want to sleep.
i don't want to get out of bed.
i want a soy latte.

skipping my fiber studio class to study for my midterm, do laundry, eat, pull myself together and what not.

brand new monday

got to school extra early today
got the one and only blueberry donut
and a hazelnut coffee
sweetness, literally.
time to study for my art history midterm before my ceramics class starts.

finally got myself a new planner.
i think making lists can be good for some.
it's how i get on track.

i've been in and out of the ceramics studio this entire week, as i am every single week.
you know where to find me.
i'm determined to make this second project what i imagine it to be.

happy birthday to my mother

Mother was my greatest teacher

As she was the most beautiful literature of all.

Wise with knowledge and wisdom

Outspoken and hardworking

Home-cooked meals

Handpicked lettuce, hand-sliced onions

Homemade love

Everyday is a holiday when I think of Mother.

Let us celebrate this day with words of admiration.

Suddenly, age becomes another matter.

sometimes i do wish that the 400 level art history courses aren't three hours long. it's tiring.
i want to go home.
i've got some ideas for my second ceramics project. i need to go home now.

just finished my art history analysis homework two hours early for the first time.

the question is when am i not busy.
the artist should never be at rest.

the ceramics critique was a success. it was 20 minutes, not 10.

the fibers critique went decent. silk scarves are done with for now. the next time you look at a handmade scarf, don't assume it was tied and dyed only one time. rather, it may have been 15 times, literally.

when did we stop caring.

hello world.

this girl is still at school. it's been about four hours since my amateur elephant installation. it looks like a mammoth from the way i shaped the chicken wire for the animal's body. however. HOWEVER. it is complete. thank goodness for the reuse depot's endless fabric scraps. my indian elephant is looking more vibrant than ever. i know the critique is only ten minutes. but this is kind of a sculptural dive-in of what i want to work towards throughout my art career and life.

keeping my stance.

yes, it is a new day. i just wrote four pages for 1/3 of my analysis papers. that is a start.

i am going to finish tying and dyeing my four scarves today. i am going to make that elephant head and trunk out of wire.

i am going to install my entire mixed media sculptural ceramics piece outside in the open.

i'm also going to get a churro from the pow-wow native american festival.

we lost an hour, but that won't kill us.

sunday, workday.

keep the inspired,

jane

i can't remember the last time i went back to my apartment. and if i did, it was never for long.

don't we all just want to relax after a long day, long night.

i bought a modern vintage lamp at the salvation army today.

i also purchased tickets for my summer trip to cambodia this summer.

maybe things are better this way.

-jane

iced soy coffee at coffee bean

just wrote a note to my good friend, anh. now i'm going to write in my journal. i need to not be at school for awhile. at least for now. i can't wait to see my first project results in ceramics though! i'm not going to be able to install my piece in the gallery space because another class will be using it. i kind of figured. it's okay, i'll find another space in the ceramics department that will work. it'll all be okay.

meanwhile, here are some late-ish birthday photos.

excuse the backgrounds of these polaroids. my printer/scanner broke. 

places visited: 

los angeles: 

graffiti coffee, coffee+food, american apparel flea market, the last bookstore

pomona: 

burgerhouse (burgers and vanilla shakes), glasshouse venue 

chino hills: 

dripp (ice cream sandwiches)

when we don't make time for the things we could make time for

I looked at my fingernails today and realized damn, it has been long since I cut them. My fingernails had been poking at my clay leaving fingernail marks and getting in the way of just about everything. So Just now, I finally took five minutes to cut and file them. How hard was that? Why the hell did I wait this long.

learning to forgive time,

jane

all i want to do is get a cup of coffee, people watch, and stop thinking for once. but that just seems so hard to do because we never really ever stop thinking about stuff in general.

oh yeah, i just ordered a cheap coffee grinder on amazon. can't wait to buy coffee beans from our local coffeeshops. i also can't wait for my best friend, mo, to visit. hopefully by then, we can just drink good coffee/tea, be in the same record store at the same time, and just have fun in the same city. in general, we as a society get so caught up with what's happening out there that we don't have time to slow down and meet halfway. some things just require making time for.

hi anonymous readers,

tonight was a long night. i ended up spending about seven hours in the dye lab working on my acid dye silk scarves. it's most often the shibori techniques that drive most of us crazy. i mean, all that mapping out, ya know? i'm done thinking about color schemes and techniques right now, however. it's time for bed. i am getting up in a couple hours to bike to ceramics. i didn't get to glazing today, and they are due today. i gave up a few hours this morning to spend some time with my best friend, anne, who visited from santa barbara and my buddy, peter, from.. well, here, but 15 minutes away. i got this delicious blueberry acai bowl from our local bagelry and enjoyed it through our small chats, shared stories, and other catch ups.

this weekend was pretty amazing. i got so much work in wednesday- friday night, so i could prepare for my 21st birthday exploration day in l.a. with my two boys, john and juan. my favorite part was just spending time with them and.. live music at the glasshouse in pomona, the ice cream sandwiches, whimsical bookstore, and just about everything from the beginning of the day to the end of the night. beats the norm of being drunk and passing out. i have this thing where i like to make people feel really special on their birthdays, regardless if i know them because i think a birthday marks the most important day of someone's entire life each year (since i consider it like a holiday that happens once a year and that holiday is yours to own for a day). a friend once told me that you should be giving your mother birthday gifts on your birthday because she was the woman who brought your life into this world. ever since, i've found that thought so truly meaningful and considerate. so for the days leading up and on the day of my birthday, all i was really thinking about on the other side of my head was how much i loved my mother and how thankful i am for being brought into this world. all of a sudden, turning one year older was just another matter.

so many thanks,

jane