sitting on the grass studying

yesterday, i'd say i had like seven slices of bread, either with hummus, tomato slices, and spinach, or with peanut butter and just peanut butter. i had about three servings of the newly bought tub of vegan neopolitan ice cream and three cups of caffeinated tea. i finished my life drawing homework after five hours. i studied throughout the night past midnight into the next day. this morning, i woke up early to study some more and then i was off to my early life drawing class. i saw jennifer's picture on instagram about how she was the only one on the vta bus. everyday, i pray that i am the only one on the bus because that way, it would make me feel less anxious about all the things in life every morning.

my asian art history test is in about one hour and a half and i am almost done with my notecards. now i'm off to memorizing the long titles, dates, artists, and regions. a squirrel is sitting next to me watching me. a butterfly just rested on top of my drawing board. that vegan chocolate tapioca pudding was so damn good. it's starting to get into an ugly habit. i spend $4 on it everyday. i should stop. but i think it's more worth it than getting starbucks most days. i can't wait to finish glazing my bisque-fired pots in the ceramics room, and then go home and clean up my mess and shower and plop on my bed like never before.

i just want chocolate tapioca pudding.

sad that i'm missing the slam poetry club audition today and possibly tomorrow. wish i had something meaningful planned ahead of time, but there is just too much going on at the moment. i hate that i always have to eat/sit on the floor in the library. all the damn chairs and tables are always taken around noon time. all i want right now is that vegan chocolate tapioca pudding in the student convenient store downstairs. the starbucks line is probably as long as the great wall of china. so i'm not going to bother. the stress is coming down and all i want to do is eat sweets. juan bought a tub of the soy neopolitan ice cream for me last night, but for some reason, i only wanted to eat a bit of it. i was craving for pudding. i'm listening to my music really loudly right now because there are no people in between the rows of books around to judge me.

The Kings Of Summer

can't wait! jennifer just sent this to me on my dropbox. this shall be saved as a real treat at the end of this week. hoping i could watch this with sara (pronounched sar-ra), my new neighbor, this thursday night. otherwise, i may go watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs 2 on student discount preview night at the amc on pacific coast highway by myself.

currently listening to daisy bell - dinah shore

juan just walked back to his apartment to watch another episode of breaking bad. i've never seen an episode of that show in my life, so i doubt i am going to start anytime soon. tonight, it's me and art history flashcards. i've lit my new all natural soy wax "peace" candle (from fern's garden on second street in long beach) and am now waiting for my tea kettle to whistle. i woke up this morning and went to ceramics as usual. today, out of ten of my new concave/convex pots, i only got a chance to trim two of them. none of my pots are actually dry enough to be trimmed at the moment. this makes it difficult since i am on a crammed schedule. i have my art history test this come wednesday afternoon, but i have 2d value scale assignments due tuesday and life drawing homework due wednesday morning. so here are my first world problems: not being able to get to the gym for even an hour in the next three days, cramming everything in between breaks of and after classes, etc. etc.

i just bought my roundtrip tickets to fly back to norcal for the thanksgiving break. i can't wait to hit up the city again and maybe do a solo trip on my little four days back. i'm thinking that i'll just go with tofurky for thanksgiving turkey replacements and perhaps making my own cauliflower mashed potatoes if i can. maybe then, i could also try making that long due homemade vegan pumpkin pie i've been wanting. pie....

by the way, zephyrs in long beach has the best slices of apple/cherry pie. i dream about pie and ceramics often.

my stomach kind of hurts right now because i did have a couple scoops of soy neopolitan ice cream. the sweetness... it was soy good in the moment, but now it hurts my stomach.

elements of design

: composition, space, volume, color, texture, line

art history paper night

life drawing homework

earl grey soy lattes for me and juan

chiptole for dinner

no homecook meal tonight

today i tripped on my own shoelaces.
i also forgot my brown bag lunch.
but i bought banana pudding, a low fat veggie burger burrito, and crispy potato snacks from the store before going to pottery.
in pottery, i made two somewhat tall concave cylinders.
everyday, i strive to do better than my performance from yesterday.

Sunday workday

I look at my fingernails and realize that the peacock colored American Apparel nail polish I painted two weeks ago or so are almost all chipped away- also that most of my fingernails are unevenly chipped, some creating sharper edges than others.

I hope I make progress in ceramics today. I'm planning to stay for seven hours max only.

edit: i ended up staying for eight hours, making all six convex and concave pots, carving through one old pot on accident, noticing that one pot cracked at the bottom, and spending about a good 40 minutes cleaning up my station. none of the new six pots match the eight inch criteria, but it's the experience and effort that counts i guess. or i hope. too exhausted.

now i just ate a whole bag of sea salted baked lentil chips in almost one sitting. it's the rice cooker, taking forever to steam my veggies tonight. i couldn't help it. my mind and body are both mentally and physically tired from working all weekend. where did this weekend go?

well, actually last night, i did take a couple of hours off with juan and went to the long beach second saturday downtown art walk. turned out that it was not as glorious as the downtown san jose ones, but i did find joy browsing through some of the local shops that usually close early throughout the week. i found an oval plate drawing of an owl on a branch with a deep forest green border for $2.99 at a shop called make collective. apparently it belonged to the owner's mother-in-law. now it's mine. that's exciting- inheriting someone's own work of art. i find that meaningful.

i also purchased three books from fingerprints, and a slice of vegan cherry pie from zephyrs. i don't like cherries, but their cherry pie was the perfect kind of sweetish tart taste i was craving for. yum. i shared that with juan while watching gravity falls (the disney cartoon) before going to bed.

next time i visit fingerprints, i may get a few random cds for kyle, my penpal, and maybe browse longer in the poetry and spirituality sections in their bookroom. maybe even grab a coffee from berlin next door. i miss their coffee. i haven't had good coffee in awhile. but that's probably because i have been making my homemade earl grey soy lattes and just plain green tea every night.

there is no real friday.

i usually have no classes on fridays because thursdays would be considered the last day of the school week. but even then getting out at 4:00 pm, a list as long as the great wall of china builds upon. for instance, i insist on getting home, doing laundry, swimming while the clothes are washing, letting the clothes dry while showering, making dinner after showering, eating dinner quickly, busing back to school, immediately getting back to pottery business for 5+ hours late at night until past midnight, all only to wake up early with droopy eyelids and a sore body in the morning barely feeling alive. i can see this going as a regular routine. i am the extreme underdog. don't get me wrong; i regret nothing.

but what i really want at the moment- i want it to be chilly outside already. so that way i could drink warm drinks, eat hot spaghetti, and watch cartoons with my boyfriend.

i also think i may be in serious denial of attention deficit disorder. this is real.

birthday cakes and no balloons

Last night, my roommates and I had our very first housewarming/brithday party at our new apartment. It went real wild.
Friends made appearances when they said they couldn't make it.
Met random people and cool neighbors.
A nice reunion for groups who haven't hung out with each other in awhile.
I had a few tortilla chips here and there and numerous cups of water all night.
I got to use my new fujifilm instax210 to take four polaroid pictures.
The last people slept at 3:00 am and one of those last people included me.
Now I have to go practice wheel throwing for ceramics for six hours.