free coffee

i stood in line today for 15 minutes only to realize that i forgot or lost my debit card at home or elsewhere when i got to the register. so i stood aside, panicked a little, and then went to a single table nearby to dump everything out of my backpack. then i realized. i let juan borrow it for laundry last night and forgot to put it back in my wallet. then i finally went to the counter (after hearing "jane-soy latte" called impatiently several times), and said, "i'm just not going to take it. i lost my card. or i think i lost my card. i don't have my card. yeah. okay. sorry."  and then the barista just looked at me blankly and said, "take it. it's already made." she kind of had an ominous glare going. surprised, i took it and didn't look back. so there i had it. my free coffee today.

but then the rest of the morning was pretty discouraging. it was our last session with drawing richard today and i couldn't even get the light and shade portions of his rib correct. or any of his body for that matter. it's discouraging because all my classmates around me, even those who have been at the same pace as me all semester,  had successfully rendered richard's body in a very naturalistic, believable way, like the way it should have been done. i have one last try the monday we come back from break. and i will try my best. i have to. the underdog doesn't give up, but the underdog doesn't always rise.

i glazed four cups today. 1 more to go, and 3 more pitchers to go. it pays off working on the weekend and weekdays, or everyday i should say.

now i'm going to sip my tazo chai tea and eat my iced oatmeal cookies in peace until eight more minutes pass by. then i'm going to start transferring my tracing paper composition of the kimono patterns to bristol board.

hooray. monday is almost over. that means i get to check in around 5:00 am tomorrow for my flight home.

i'm going to make all of this work.

-jane